Monday, May 30, 2011

Finally, Last day of consumer fair.

Finally, today was the last day of consumer fair at ICC. It was rather tiring, as well as the longest day among this 5 days. Meh.

My result wasn't that good, eventhough I KINDA tried my best, though I know it's not yet my Best-est~.

Exhausted. What I'm thinking right now is all about quitting the job. But I might leave with a guilty heart because I haven't done much in that company. I did learn something, but I didn't make much effort to achieve it. Was it really my fault? Or it's just that I was concerning too much about what other might think about me?

I notice that every time when she tells me "you can't do it", then all of sudden, the confident in side of me would be thrown away. Yes, ALL of it, and I'm not kidding. And I hate comparison. Would you just stop telling me that "Hey, look at him/her , he's new here, but he has done so much that you can't even do like him". Well, if you're trying to make me think "I can't lose to him, I'm gonna blablablablabla", then you're definitely wrong. My mind would automatically start telling me that "Yeah, that's true..." even without me realising it. I know that it's not good to think that way, but it definitely would have to take time for me to change from a negative person to a positive one, no?

Recently, I always wake up and found myself in a reaaaally bad mood when I don't usually have that problem. Meh.

G'Night to the World~

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

first day of exhibition at ICC, consumer fair part 8~

Just got home from expo awhile ago... It was another tough day. My feet are suffering! Shouldn't have wore the high heels to the expo... -.-'''

To be frank, I don't fancy expo much, especially doing sales and all that~ D: However, I've gotta try~ at least I managed to get one deposit of $50 for today~ hahah~ hmmm, just one though. =/

Though it's kinda relax today, it's only the first day of consumer fair, it's gonna be tougher starting from tomorrow onwards because the people from the HQ in Miri is coming up to guide us through the consumer fair. And.... yeah, no high heels tomorrow because I'm so no going to wear it! -.-!

Anyways, gotta take a nice warm shower and then I shall hit the sack! :D Happiest moment of the day! But also the saddest moment of the day because I still have to go to work tomorrow... D: oh yeah, I also have to wake up a little bit earlier tomorrow morning 'cause I have to go to the police station~ -.- AND THEN, go to the Sunpizz office, and only go to ICC after that... D:


Tuesday, May 24, 2011

The working days...

I have no idea why I haven't felt like blogging for Oh-so-long.. lack of inspiration, maybe? Or rather, I'm just being too lazy to update my blog...? XD I guess I'll consider both.. lulul~

Anyways.. I've been working in this company called Sunpizz furniture... It's a franchise company from China which sells shit loads of customized furniture and I've been working there for almost half a year...

Recently, I've noticed that trying to motivate me in a rough way couldn't really make a good effect on me, I would only think more negatively that way. Sometimes I feel like saying, I really don't know what exactly you want from me... I know that the things you want me to do are just being responsible on my work but really.. to the same thing, sometimes you'd say that it's okay, sometimes you'd say that it's not.

You don't expect me to speak like a uber pro sales girl just in half a year time from a person who hardly even talk to outsiders. I know, I can't say much cuz I'm working so I have to learn to talk. But hey, think about it, you told me that you used to be like me, who hardly even speak to others, you'd need someone to accompany you even when walking to the nearby shop to buy drinks. However, you've became someone whose very cheerful and won't freak out even you're in front of a stranger/ client. How long did you take to achieve something like this? You've been up to the stage, present in front of audience, including the courses that you took during your college/ uni life, you've at least have more than 10 years of experience.. what more can I say about me?

Not that I wanna give excuses to rescue myself from all the blames, but I'm a slow learner, you can't expect me to learn and master things in a second, not unless i practice it everyday, and I at least would need a year to master. I'm someone who needs to be pushed. I know, of course I can't be like that all the time, but how would I know if things are supposed to be done or not? Meh, don't know what I'm talking about anymore.. :S

I'm kinda tired and stressed out, eventhough I know that being stressed at least means that you're learning something, there's a say "no pain no gain", right? oh well...

Jya, guess that's not everything for now but I will try to blog again soon~ :P