The working days...

I have no idea why I haven't felt like blogging for Oh-so-long.. lack of inspiration, maybe? Or rather, I'm just being too lazy to update my blog...? XD I guess I'll consider both.. lulul~

Anyways.. I've been working in this company called Sunpizz furniture... It's a franchise company from China which sells shit loads of customized furniture and I've been working there for almost half a year...

Recently, I've noticed that trying to motivate me in a rough way couldn't really make a good effect on me, I would only think more negatively that way. Sometimes I feel like saying, I really don't know what exactly you want from me... I know that the things you want me to do are just being responsible on my work but really.. to the same thing, sometimes you'd say that it's okay, sometimes you'd say that it's not.

You don't expect me to speak like a uber pro sales girl just in half a year time from a person who hardly even talk to outsiders. I know, I can't say much cuz I'm working so I have to learn to talk. But hey, think about it, you told me that you used to be like me, who hardly even speak to others, you'd need someone to accompany you even when walking to the nearby shop to buy drinks. However, you've became someone whose very cheerful and won't freak out even you're in front of a stranger/ client. How long did you take to achieve something like this? You've been up to the stage, present in front of audience, including the courses that you took during your college/ uni life, you've at least have more than 10 years of experience.. what more can I say about me?

Not that I wanna give excuses to rescue myself from all the blames, but I'm a slow learner, you can't expect me to learn and master things in a second, not unless i practice it everyday, and I at least would need a year to master. I'm someone who needs to be pushed. I know, of course I can't be like that all the time, but how would I know if things are supposed to be done or not? Meh, don't know what I'm talking about anymore.. :S

I'm kinda tired and stressed out, eventhough I know that being stressed at least means that you're learning something, there's a say "no pain no gain", right? oh well...

Jya, guess that's not everything for now but I will try to blog again soon~ :P

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