好久沒翻開的頁面...

前幾天，和父母下美里去做牙齒。在等待時間到以前，我們到美里的一間百貨公司，'百盛' 逛了一會兒。原本是想要買一本有關「拖延心理學的書」，沒想到結果他們沒在賣。

後來看了看，因為爸爸真的等不下去了，媽媽就隨便塞了一本書給我。「跟TED 學表達，讓世界記住你」。看了兩眼覺得還不錯，就把它給買下來了～

反正我覺得我真的很需要一些表達的技巧，因為本人就是對銷售沒什麼信心。好吧！開始就讀！預備，翻！

才剛翻開幾頁讀了前言，就覺得書本裡說的東西都很吸引我，帶我進入了他們的世界，而想知道更多。

賈伯斯也說了一句話，讓我覺得事實真的是如此...

老實說，我們的時間的確是非常有限的，我必須要好好的珍惜時間，別在浪費了。現在的我，已經是25歲，我還有多少時間能讓我拿來玩呢？

別再玩了，該好好定下心來，做自己應該做的事，才能把想做的事也做好。

好啦，該繼續讀下去了～ 😁 

안녕~~

Don't judge a book by its cover

真的，有好多人，好多事，都和我們所看到的不一樣。有許多人表裡不一，也有好多事，和我們預料中的不一樣。有些人可以是很好的朋友，但當你發現他的真面目之時，就真的不知如何再繼續當朋友。

最近身邊發生了一點事，讓我理解了，就算你再相信一個人，他也許並沒有你所認為的那麼值得信任。你再不想相信他的所作所為，並不代表他沒那麼做。我依然如此天真的希望這只是個誤會。是的，我依然希望當我醒來，甚麼都沒發生過。

Time flies...

转眼间，已经是12月15号了。

在这之前，我还是懵懵懂懂的过日子。

当我正悠哉的看着这两年来照过的相片，无意间看到之前和宝贝在机场拍的合照，我才赫然发现我在马来西亚的时间已不多了，更讽刺的是，我并不知道我到底什么时候会离开。原因是得申请取消学生证。

说真的，我非常非常舍不得离开他。

我发现，近期来我没有好好疼他，没有好好让他感受到他应有的爱。是的，他很爱我，也很疼我，而我却把他的爱当成理所当然。在他没有理我的时候发脾气；他没有照我说的意思去做事情的时候我就不爽；更是为了琐事而向他开骂，真的是很不应该。我得好好珍惜他，好好的疼他，因为我不想到时候离开了才来后悔什么女朋友该有的的本份都没做到。

今天晚上就要出发到小岛（Langkawi）去玩！我必须好好的珍惜相处的时间呀～！也要拍很多很多的照照！！

Egi and I
The Library, Mid Valley.

不只这样，我一定要好好努力！努力创业，作出一番成绩！

用剩下来的时间做最后的冲刺，不到最后一秒绝对不能放弃！

我真的不想再为自己找借口，我开始发现找借口很烦，比放手去做还要麻烦。因为我必须面对我自己，而当我面对我自己的时候，就像是看到镜子里的自己，而对我所找的借口感到万分内疚。

因此，为了不再让自己感到内疚，或是觉得自己好像欠自己什么似的，我答应自己，从Langkawi 回来了之后，一定要好好地去干一场！虽然不知道结果将如何，不去好好干一场哪知道啊？

所以，为了我的将来，为了更好的未来，为了我所承诺的一切，我一定得好好努力，因为，“一言既出，驷马难追” 我已经没得回头了。

飞翔吧！

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A Letter

I have been told to write a letter to someone whom I think I should give all the credits to, in fact, ALL of us from the BTC class were told to write a letter to that very person whom you think you really wanna give thanks to. Tell him or her what you're really appreciated for, your apologies, and what is your future planning and what is it that you're going to do next.

I have been thinking of writing to my parents, to the lecturer in my college whom I once really hated but I have come to like him this semester, but I really couldn't think of anything to write about. Well, it's not that I have nothing to appreciate about my parents or the lecturers in my college. In fact, if I were to write one letter for one of them I would have to write for everyone of them, LOL! Anyways, there's this person who I have been thinking. And yes, I think she would be the perfect target for me to jot down my thoughts, my appreciations, my apologies, and my future planning and targets.

This is getting me really excited, except that I'm really tired at the point of this time. I'm still ill and it's 3:41am, I should really sleep before my immune system go down again, although it's really unlikely but yeah.

I'm really proud of myself this week, I have been ill this whole week but I have seen a few improvements in myself, although I do admit I need to be more productive. It's ok... slow but steady, I shall first stand strong on my basics, so I could build this building higher! :)

Ah ya ya my eyes are shutting down, I hafta go to slee....p... l..ike... n...now....



Tadaaaaa~ ZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......

First time to the house meeting~

Yeaaaaaaaap! It's today! The first time I go to an Amway's house meeting with Teng~ it was kinda fun~ with everyone discussing things of what we love, we share with our hearts. Well, it might sound weird but this is what I truly felt today, it was really a blessing to be able to meet many kind of people along the way, especially those who are kind to you, give chances to you and whatnot.

Today, some of us shared about why we chose to join Amway when there are so many other options to look at, explained the value that they have finally come to understand, and it was precious. People around us, they all have different stories, different opinion, and of course, different personalities. The more we sit down there together and talk, the more we understand, and appreciate each others' companion. 

Today, while Teng's father was talking about our "dreams" and targets, I have decided my target for this year, on Christmas day, is that I will buy myself an iPhone 5s as a Christmas present! ;D it's a pretty big deal for me because I could hardly save up such a big amount of money! And it would be around RM 3k for the latest iPhone, for sure. And yes, I'm gonna do it, and I'm not alone!!

This is the iPhone 5s model that I plan on buying~ the champagne colour~ ❤❤❤❤❤

Aside from that, I'm gonna make sure my parents will be able to eat Nutrilite easily as soon as possible, hopefully, also by the end of the year, and I also want to purchase eSpring, and yes, that would be my second target after iPhone 5s!! :D 

Now this is eSpring~~!!

Aaaaaaaaaand here's why I choose eSpring.

Well, there are so many other dreams I would love to achieve, but I have to make sure I'm able to achieve the smallest ones, that is, be a great daughter and get some reaaaaally good results!! I'm gonna get pass through this sem, and I'm thinking of learning more about Amway, Nutrilite, and Artistry, and everything... I'm gonna help those who needs help, but firstly I needa let myself learn more! 

Talking about dreams... I should really go to bed since its already 3:42am here... Good night people~~ xD

蠟燭人生

孩子就像個小小探險家，天不怕地不怕的到處探險，尋找新奇的玩意兒。

孩子們漸漸地長大，不知不覺地走進了未知的洞穴裡，因為看不見前面黑暗的道路而感到迷失、害怕。

而我們的人生就像這條黑暗的洞穴，你永遠不會看到前面的道路。

然而，希望就會像蠟燭上燃燒的火焰，雖然火焰又弱又小，卻能照亮你腳邊的路。

我要說的是，人生的道路上，誰都看不到前面等著你的到底是什麼，但至少你得知道你目前的狀況。

有希望，就得努力。想看到洞穴外頭的世界，就得努力的走，不斷地走，時不時會遇到一兩顆絆腳石，跌倒了再爬起來繼續走！只要堅持下去，一定能走出這片黑暗，找到你所期待的那片天空！

Random coke~

I don't usually drink coke, and no, this is not mine but I saw the cute butterflies flying around on the cover I just feel like taking a picture of it. Sadly, my phone's camera has lost its focus function, so everything close up looks so damn blur and the background is just... Clear, or at least it looks ok~ meh~ >.<

Well, I've been thinking for awhile now, I wanna save money and get myself an iPhone 5, or maybe Galaxy S4, but well I guess I shall wait for the new iPhone to be released so I could compare before I jump to any conclusion of getting myself anything unnecessarily... Maybe I'll just wait till my phone die for real, then I'll get myself a new iPhone... First of all, I have to save enough money for that xD But I really really do look forward to the iOS 7!! It's really much, much better than the old one I'm using now~ lalalalala~

thoughts

Suddenly, the thoughts of future came rushing inside of my head.
Suddenly, the memories of the past flashes through my head.
Suddenly, everything happened just in a few seconds time.

Perhaps I sounded like I was going to die for a moment, but nahh, just some random thoughts flashed through my brain~ Worry not, I'm sitll as healthy as a cow~! :O

What was I thinking? Oh yeah, the future. Talk about money, I don't have much now. I want to buy things, I want to study aboard, I want to pay my own fees, I want to support my family; but for now, I only have enough for my own from working. How I wish I could get a job with high salary, so I could pay for my own things while supporting my family. =s Mehh.

About the past, was the time I used to spend with my dear friends, my dear family, my cousins, and my dear bf (:O). If I happened to leave this place to somewhere else to study or to work, will I still be able to contact them very often? In this case, I'm talking about my friends. =b I'm sure I'll miss the time when we used to talk in my car and gossiping about others until late night, the time we used to argue about small little things such as jealousy, the time we used to hang out just to catch up with each other's lives, and lots more. Aiyaa, not trying to sound emotional here but just some random thoughts~ XDD

Bah, that's all for nao if not someone's goona say I sound very emotional here again! xD

hona mata~!

being occupied with tons of things~

Hii peeps~ Apparently I haven't been blogging for some times due to my laziness and well, works are piling up like... insane... = =" For now, I still have biology project in hand, MIB group presentation (though it's not so important, =x but well~ I think I shouldn't keep on behaving like this since it's still gonna be written in my result sheet *sighs* = =). I've just done with the powerpoint slide show for the class performance on Monday, Chinese script for stage play competition on 1st of May (lots of preparation is needed), and two of the perfomance on 5th of May. Apparently I have to revise my subjects for the coming exam as well, though I could hardly concentrate on revising ONLY.

I have to say sorry to baato sensei, for I haven't been attending the class very frequently since this month, I didn't purposely skipped it but things aren't going very smoothly that I had to choose to sacrifice some of the lessons... I do admit there're time I feel like slacking off.~ =x But I'm trying not to since mid year is near, and more are coming after the mid year. I know!!! Getting worst. o.O Perhaps it's really time for me to learn what's being 'stressed'~?

Well, aside from going insane with the piling up of works, I was inspired to do CG (computer graphic), and it ended up like this. Not very nice though, but well, this is my errr... first and second time doing a CG? xD Considered not bad, I hope? xp

My first try on SAKURA-CHAN, was just trying out the colouring.
This picture was extracted from Cardcaptor Sakura's manga! =D
If I'm not mistaken, I guess I did this quite awhile ago?

My second try, this time was the sketching and colouring.
Random character. (You do notice she doesn't have eye brows no? = ="")
Did this quite awhile ago also.

Third try, based on my avatar on gaia.
Not very good, but I'm getting used to the tools in illustrator d! xD
I think I'd need a tablet in order to do better in this. o.O

btw, opinions are appreciated! =D
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Moreover, I just found out that my guitar had became 'fat' due to some reason. = = The body had bent to an unbelievable shape.
Freddy: You know what? (points at guitar's 'body') Please tell me what happened to your guitar...
Pei: OH LOL IS IT PREGNANT? O.o
Me: ...

It was bent due to the expansion of the wood, it's not so obvious though, it's just like a woman was pregnant for 3 months... How stupid of me 'cos I left it in my car under the hot sun in a super fine weather, and it's... hopeless now. I'm so... sad... = = Even though I've always been thinking of buying a new guitar, but well, I don't think I have the money to do it. So from now on, I'll try to save up my money, bit by bit, to buy myself an idea guitar with low price, hopefully there's any out there. =]



Ja, koko wa di-enddo dseu~
minna-san, mata ne~ =D

Sleepless night.

If you ask me what's more scary than spirits, then I would say it's a cockroach. Seriously, that's the only time I would scream like a girl ( I know, I AM a GIRL but I don't normally scream for things... =.=). I don't even scream when I watch horror movie! I jerk people's arm =x (Kevin's arm almost got jerked off by me few years back when we were watching the maid. o.o) Okay, we shall go back to the topic, and yes. I hate them. =.= I was listening to "The Rose" by "Olivia Lurfkin" last night while I was sleeping when I felt something tickling my lap. I instantly shined my phone's light at the place where I felt ticklish and there I found the small disgusting creature was crawling and waving it's feelers on my small pillow beside my lap! I sprung out of my bed and switched on the light to see it was happily swinging it's feelers at me! I almost screamed out loud but luckily I didn't 'cause my parents were already sleeping... I wouldn't want to wake them up.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Yes! Thanks to it I didn't managed to sleep for the whole night. =.= thank you for the service. You've increased my hatred towards you. =.=

Seriously, I didn't sleep for the whole night until 5 something in the morning just because of that small creature. = =" I was staring at the ceiling/ window/ computer (not on) in the darkness, all the time. I was sooooo sleepy but I just couldn't fall asleep. = =" Whenever I close my eyes I could feel it's touching my skin softly, can you picture it??? Well, at least it's caught now, and DIE DIE DIEEEEE!!!!!! xD

Well, during the time I wasn't able to sleep, I've thought of something that's hardly ever in my mind. Yes, cash. I barely worried about cash, it's not because I'm rich. In fact, I'm not, and currently my family is sort of facing financial problem due to several reasons. I save up money and use them sometimes, though I didn't often use them wisely but at least I don't normally reach out my hands for gold from my parents, I don't do it on purpose, it's my nature. Well, I do feel envy when I see someone with gorgeous out look, but for now, I'm trying not to think of buying anything that's barely necessary. That's why sometimes when friends ask what do I what them to get when they go overseas for vacation or something, I would either say 'I don't know', or ' it's okay, you don't have to buy anything for me'. Though I know I want something from them, even as a small present or whatnot.

I have been counting my family's expenses and income, income is low, but expenses for this year raised because my brother and I, are having government exam this year. For each month, they'll have to spend for my tuition fees, which I'm taking now are Maths, POA and soon I'm going to have Geography tuition starting from April, the expenses for just the tuition fees will be $200+ and together with my school fees $155, that'll be $355 per month, allowance not included. For my brother, he hasn't start going tuition yet so for now it's still $155 per month, but unlike me, he spends money like there's no end. Sigh, little kids, that's what they called.

Recently I've been thinking of opening a blog shop for which they sell clothes and bags, but due to the lack of capital and experience, I'd better not do it now since I should focus more on my studies. So that's how I plan, I shall see my O'level's result and then I'll see if I should stay and work part time until I think I got enough money to study overseas, or if I manage to score good grades, I would go straight to overseas to study.

It's not that I want to tell the whole world that I'm stressed but it's just a reminder to myself that I should quit slacking off like what I'm doing now in order to score good grades.

Anyways, it's late, I started blogging at 7:57pm and I'm only done with this entry at 10:35pm. I should sleep very soon since I didn't really fall asleep the previous night. Ciao people~ good night~ =]

Time to let go.

To that particular someone, I am not going to spit out the name of that person since I know lots of you out there must be experiencing this too. Seriously, I have no idea what you are up to now. Though you have mentioned that you would try your best to forget about that particular worthless person, but look what you are doing now is apparently ironic, and against what you have said. I know it’s taking forever and it hurts so much that you could not stop thinking about that particular someone, but think about it, have you really tried your best? Do not even dare to say that, ‘I’ve already tried my hardest and I still couldn’t let go,’ and then start over to chase after that particular someone again. Flirting all over just to try to get that particular someone’s attention or coming back to you when you know it is apparently impossible since he or she already has someone else by their side for Valentine’s Day. What is the point getting you hurt so deeply inside? Will that particular someone really give a damn on your pitiful self and goes back to you just because you have slimmed down due to the fact that you have not eat or sleep properly for the past few months? I know it’s ironic because I made someone suffered almost the same way in the past. I’m not trying to say you are an useless person, but isn’t there something else more important to you rather than wanting that particular worthless someone back by your side when they have no job, no qualification, and only rely on parents? Not to mention their mongrel friends. Think about it, over and over again. Is it really worth it for you being so pitiful for a useless person like this? That particular person had backstabbed you, he or she doesn’t believe in every single thing you said. They might be suitable to be a normal friend of yours, but not a partner. Please do keep this in mind. What I have written may not be very right but truth is truth, after the rainfall, you should wake up and try looking for a rainbow.

In case there will be any misunderstanding, I'm not being sick of anything but just letting out what I want to say in mind. Your friends are worrying about you, so am I. We just want you to find your way out, quit wandering around like a lost child.